Hectic Life

Been posting a lot lately and it actually feelings pretty good!! So many things are happening in my life right now and I can just say that it is quite hectic, to say the least. I am applying for my first college this thursday which is insane!! I cannot believe this is actually happening. I wrote my essay on climbing, obviously because it is the most important thing in my life. I wish I had more words than 500 because I could talk about climbing for days. But my essay is almost done and now I am waiting on my recommendations and then it'll be done!! Hell yeah!! So that's going on. Then i have a comp coming this saturday. It is taking place here which is exciting! The route-setters (Bryan Rafferty, Mike Veazey) are amazing and I cannot wait to see the amazing routes they put up. I have been training super hard and I am really excited to see what my training has done for my skills. Let's hope everything goes well! Well, even though, my life is beyond crazy right now with everyone going on. I am still very happy!! Obviously every once in a while, I'll get those moments of sheer panic but I remind myself to breath and everything falls back into place. My love-life is non existent but I have no worries about that anymore. Sure, I like someone but life happens and eventually things will fall into place. Well, Wish me luck with my comp!! And I will post results later! Thanks!

Nothing's Going To Bring Me Down

So, as many people know, I was not doing so "hot" last week. In fact, I was kind of depressed. I can look back on how I was and realize that I was sad and I was rightly sad. I was not feeling to great about myself and I had some low self-eestem problems going on. But I can, honestly, say now that I am doing amazing. It is weird how I can change so radically in such a short amount of time. But this weekend I figured out what I want. I am not going to go and say what I want because I do not believe it needs to be common knowledge but just know, that I have "found" myself this weekend. I went to Bioneers by the Bay in New Bedford this weekend, an environmental conference. I was able to get away from school and accurately see what was making me sad and I was able to give myself some steps to overcome this. I heard some speakers who spoke to me and I could listen to their words and apply them to what was going on in my life. For example, one lady talked about the fact that if someone were to cut the stems of pretty flowers and try to plant them in my pot, they are going to die. I should not be trying to be other people or I should not be jealous of people. I have my own "flower". I do not know what it's going to look like when it grows fully but I know it is my flower and I have to water it and care for it and not worry about other peoples flowers. It was amazing to be able to finally figure out what was making me upset and figure out how to make myself feel better. So, I am now doing great and I feel amazing!! Nothing is going to bring me down.

Don't expect a climbing post

This post is not really about climbing at all but I needed some place to put down what I'm feeling and that was the whole reason I made a blog in the first place. Well... There is a girl in my life right now. She doesn't know it but She means the world to me and If i could, I would talk to her every second of every day but I know that she doesn't want that. And I always want to message her but I am afraid I am going to annoy her and make her hate me and her hating me would probably be one of the worst feelings in the world. So I am stuck with this dilemma, message her and hope she doesn't mind it or don't message her, not even risk the chance of annoying her but not be able to talk to her which is also horrible. I just don't know what to do. I am not looking for answers and I am not expecting pity. I am only expressing my thoughts into words because it helps when I do that. I hope she knows how much she means to me but if she doesn't, there is not much I can do... I will not go into more detail about this girl in fear of giving away her identity and embarrassing her (because who would want to be associated with me right?) That's the low self-eestem talking, not me... Well not much more to say on the subject, I just needed to tell someone and my blog is a great place for that! I really hope it works out with her in the future. She means everything to me right now and every minute I'm not with her just drains me of energy. I've tried to get over her too but without any luck! I'm crazy about this girl and there is nothing more to be done about it.

Rock Climbing In Acadia

Here is a video of my time with my friends in Acadia pulling hard on some amazing sea-polished rocks!!! Had a blast and the video shows the amazing time we had! Check it out!